Saturday, September 28, 2013
Umberto Eco
But now I have come to believe that the whole world is an enigma, a harmless enigma that is made terrible by our own mad attempt to interpret it as though it had an underlying truth.
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Sea Change
Ocean acidification, the lesser-known
twin of climate change, threatens to scramble marine life on a scale
almost too big to fathom.
"Sea Change" was produced, in part, with funding from the Pulitzer Center on Crisis Reporting.
She kicked through blue water until she spotted a ceramic tile attached to the bottom of a reef.
A year earlier, the ecologist from the Australian Institute of Marine Science had placed this small square near a fissure in the sea floor where gas bubbles up from the earth. She hoped the next generation of baby corals would settle on it and take root.
Fabricius yanked a knife from her ankle holster, unscrewed the plate and pulled it close. Even underwater the problem was clear. Tiles from healthy reefs nearby were covered with budding coral colonies in starbursts of red, yellow, pink and blue. This plate was coated with a filthy film of algae and fringed with hairy sprigs of seaweed.
Instead of a brilliant new coral reef, what sprouted here resembled a slimy lake bottom.
Isolating the cause was easy. Only one thing separated this spot from the lush tropical reefs a few hundred yards away.
Carbon dioxide.
In fact, the water chemistry here is exactly what scientists predict most of the seas will be like in 60 to 80 years.
That makes this isolated splash of coral reef a chilling vision of our future oceans.
‘High rates of extinction’ to come?
Imagine every person on Earth tossing a hunk of CO2 as heavy as a bowling ball into the sea. That’s what we do to the oceans every day.Burning fossil fuels, such as coal, oil and natural gas, belches carbon dioxide into the air. But a quarter of that CO2 then gets absorbed by the seas — eight pounds per person per day, about 20 trillion pounds a year.
But all that CO2 is changing the chemistry of the ocean faster than at any time in human history. Now the phenomenon known as ocean acidification — the lesser-known twin of climate change — is helping push the seas toward a great unraveling that threatens to scramble marine life on a scale almost too big to fathom, and far faster than first expected.
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Acidification wasn’t supposed to start doing its damage until much later this century.
Instead, changing sea chemistry already has killed billions of oysters along the Washington coast and at a hatchery that draws water from Hood Canal. It’s helping destroy mussels on some Northwest shores. It is a suspect in the softening of clam shells and in the death of baby scallops. It is dissolving a tiny plankton species eaten by many ocean creatures, from auklets and puffins to fish and whales — and that had not been expected for another 25 years.
And this is just the beginning.
Ocean acidification also can bedevil fish and the animals that eat them, including sharks, whales, seabirds and, of course, bigger fish. Shifting sea chemistry can cripple the reefs where fish live, rewire fish brains and attack what fish eat.
Those changes pose risks for our food, too, from the frozen fish sticks pulled from the grocer’s freezer to the fillets used in McDonald’s fish sandwiches, to the crab legs displayed at Pike Place Market, all brought to the world by a Northwest fishing industry that nets half the nation’s catch.
And this chemical change is not happening in a vacuum.
Island reefs of Papua New Guinea offer a window on our future, while fishing ports in Alaska and along the Washington coast show how the deterioration of food webs could strike close to home.
“I used to think it was kind of hard to make things in the ocean go extinct,” said James Barry of the Monterey Bay Aquarium Research Institute in California. “But this change we’re seeing is happening so fast it’s almost instantaneous. I think it might be so important that we see large levels, high rates, of extinction.”
Globally, we can arrest much of the damage if we bring down CO2 soon. But if we do not, the bad news won’t stop. And the longer we wait, the more permanent the change gets.
“There’s a train wreck coming and we are in a position to slow that down and make it not so bad,” said Stephen Palumbi, a professor of evolutionary and marine biology at Stanford University. “But if we don’t start now the wreck will be enormous.”
You might think that would lend the problem urgency. So far, it has not.
Combined nationwide spending on acidification research for eight federal agencies, including grants to university scientists by the National Science Foundation, totals about $30 million a year — less than the annual budget for the coastal Washington city of Hoquiam, population 10,000.
The federal government has spent more some years just studying sea lions in Alaska.
So to understand how acidification could transform marine life, The Seattle Times crisscrossed the world’s greatest ocean, from the sun-dappled reefs of the South Pacific to the ice-encrusted surface of the Bering Sea.
How much carbon are we putting into the ocean?
Mark Nowlin / The Seattle Times
But the island reefs of Papua New Guinea’s Milne Bay province offer a window on our future, while fishing ports in Alaska and along the Washington coast show how damage to fish brains and the deterioration of food webs may strike close to home.
A disturbing glimpse of the future
Papua New Guinea’s Solomon Sea island vents are remarkable because of where they are: in shallow waters normally fringed by coral reefs as striking as fields of wildflowers.These remnants of earthquakes or eruptions come in all shapes: mini-geysers, a giant crack that burps basketball-size blobs of gas, rows of pinprick holes in the sand that exhale curtains of Champagne bubbles.
The culprit: excess carbon dioxide. When CO2 hits seawater it becomes carbonic acid — the same weak acid found in club soda — and releases hydrogen ions, reducing the water’s pH. This chemical change robs the water of carbonate ions, a critical building block for many marine organisms. Clams rely on that carbonate, as do corals, lobsters, shrimp, crabs, barnacles, sand dollars, cucumbers and sea urchins.
In Puget Sound, for example, 30 percent of marine life — some 600 species — draws upon carbonate ions to grow.
Reaction to high CO2 varies by species. Acidification can kill baby abalone and some crabs, deform squid and weaken brittle stars while making it tough for corals to grow. It can increase sea grasses, which can be good, and boost the toxicity of red tides, which is not. It makes many creatures less resilient to heavy metal pollution.
Roughly a quarter of organisms studied by researchers actually do better in high CO2. Another quarter seem unaffected. But entire marine systems are built around the remaining half of susceptible plants and animals.
“What does well in disturbed environments are invasive generalists,” said Ken Caldeira, a climate expert at Stanford’s Carnegie Institution for Science, who helped popularize the term ocean acidification. “The ones that do poorly are the more highly evolved specialists. Yes, there will be winners and losers, but the winners will mostly be the weeds.”
Many species, from sea urchins to abalone, have some capacity to adapt to high CO2. But it’s not clear if they will have the time.
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That is the underlying problem: The pace of change has caught everyone off guard.
Already, the oceans have grown 30 percent more acidic since the dawn of the industrial revolution — 15 percent just since the 1990s. By the end of this century, scientists predict, seas may be 150 percent more acidic than they were in the 18th century.
The oceans are corroding faster than they did during past periods of marine extinctions that were linked to souring seas. Even 55 million years ago, the rate of change was 10 times slower than today. The current shift has come so quickly that scientists five years ago saw chemical changes off the West Coast not expected for half a century.
And the seas are souring even faster in some places.
The Arctic and Antarctic have shifted more rapidly than other waters around the world because deep, cold seas absorb more CO2. The U.S. West Coast has simply seen consequences sooner because strong winds draw its CO2-rich water to the surface where vulnerable shellfish live.
That threatens to reduce the variety of life in the sea.
“That loss of biodiversity should matter to people just like a lack of diversity in your stock portfolio should bother people,” said Jeremy Mathis, an oceanographer with the National Oceanic and Atmospheric Administration. “It works exactly the same way. If you go all-in on one stock and that stock crashes, you’re stuck.”
Katharina Fabricius sees plenty of reason to worry.
In six trips to Papua New Guinea, she found sea cucumbers and urchins living near the vents, but the shrimp and crab she expected to see instead were almost nonexistent. She saw only 60 percent as many hard corals as she did on healthy reefs nearby. Only 8 percent as many soft corals survived, and one species dominated. The reefs that remained were less intricate, offering fewer places for animals to hide. Dull, rounded boulder corals, which seemed to thrive, still grew a third slower than normal. Sea grasses flourished but were less diverse. There was twice as much fleshy algae.
Corals protect shorelines from erosion and severe weather and provide a dormitory where staggering varieties of life seek shelter. Those tiny plants and animals then become food for other creatures. Study after study shows the same thing — the more reefs collapse and fleshy algae spreads, the less we see of important tropical fish: wrasses, tangs, damselfish, parrotfish.
Those losses come at a price.
One-sixth of animal protein consumed by humans comes from marine fish — in some cultures nearly all of it. The vast majority of wild seafood is fish, and fish account for three-quarters of the money made from ocean catches.
Yet reefs are just the first of many ways ocean-chemistry shifts could hit seafood.
Scientists once thought fish would dodge the worst direct effects of acidification. Now it appears that might be wrong — a fact researchers learned almost by accident.
Losing Nemo: Fish harmed, with deadly results
In 2007, American biologist Danielle Dixson arrived in Papua New Guinea hoping to find out how Nemo got home.Clownfish live in waggling anemones near coral reefs, often near islands. Scientists suspected they traced their way through the sea by following their noses. But how?
Dixson, then a graduate student at Australia’s James Cook University, wanted to find the olfactory cue that drew clownfish back to the reef. She tested smells from different water. She tested dirt. Nothing was quite right, until she looked up.
Back in Australia, she prepared to repeat the experiment in a lab. There she bumped into Philip Munday.
Munday, a James Cook University professor, had been trying to see if carbon dioxide hurts fish. He checked everything: weight, survival, reproduction. No obvious problems surfaced, which came as no surprise. Fish are excellent at altering blood chemistry to accommodate changing seas.
But he wanted to do more tests. He asked Dixson if she minded raising some extra clownfish for him.
On a whim they decided: Why not see if CO2 altered how fish use their noses?
“We thought, ‘let’s just combine the two experiments and see how it goes,’ not expecting that we’d see anything,” Munday said.
CO2-rich seas can scramble fish behavior
Mark Nowlin / The Seattle Times
Normal clownfish always avoided the danger. The exposed fish lost all fear. They swam straight at predators.
Over the next few years, scientists learned CO2 changed many reef fishes’ senses and behaviors: sight, hearing, the propensity to turn left or right. Baby reef fish exposed to high CO2 and placed back in the wild died five times more often. Even when baby reef fish and predators were both exposed to high CO2, young fish were bolder, ventured farther from home — and died twice as often.
Only last year did researchers learn why: Elevated CO2 disrupts brain signaling in a manner common among many fish.
The clownfish story, in other words, was no longer just about clownfish.
By then, another American living in Australia, marine scientist Jodie Rummer, was learning that high CO2 boosted aerobic capacity for some tropical fish, transforming them into super athletes. Yet even some of these fish showed behavioral problems. Rummer called it “dumb jock syndrome.”
“You might expect that a more athletic fish can be better at chasing food, or be better at getting away from a predator, or finding a mate,” she said. “But if their cognitive function — or their brain — is compromised under these high-CO2 conditions, they might make bad choices. They might turn the wrong direction and end up right in a predator’s mouth.”
Most of this research had been limited to a select few tropical species. But scientists knew it wouldn’t take much for behavioral problems to impact consumers.
Acidification need only harm the wrong fish.
Big warning for high-stakes fishery
Behind Enlow, giant vacuum hoses spit thousands of oily walleye pollock onto a conveyor.
Pollock “is the lifeblood of our local economy, certainly, and the state’s economy, and one of the largest industries on the Northwest and West Coast,” said Enlow, the plant’s manager.
The North Pacific pollock catch is so big it sounds almost absurd. Fleets of fishermen and factory trawlers haul in 3 billion pounds annually. No other North American fishery operates on this scale. Seafood companies reel in $1 billion a year from that catch.
Pollock gets carved into frozen fish sticks, sold overseas as roe and imitation crab, or packed in blocks. McDonald’s runs television commercials trumpeting the Bering Sea fishermen who supply pollock for Filet-O-Fish sandwiches.
So pollock was among the first species the U.S. government tested in high-CO2 water. Results late last year brought no surprise: Acidification would hurt neither the fish’s body nor its growth. Adult and young seemed physically unharmed.
But after tracking clownfish research, government scientists in Oregon tried new tests.
After smelling prey, pollock scout around and hunt it down. So NOAA biologist Thomas Hurst exposed young pollock to high CO2 and introduced the scent of what they eat. Some of the fish struggled to recognize their food.
“In some of the very early work it looks like pollock may show some of the same kinds of deficits that are seen in coral-reef fishes,” Hurst said.
It’s too soon to say how — or even if — that would affect pollock fishing. Some tropical fish raised in high-CO2 water gave birth to young that adjusted to their new environment. Pollock might respond the same way.
But the fish also might not. And a lot rides on the outcome, particularly in the Northwest.
“We don’t yet know whether it’s going to be a really severe impact or a modest impact,” Hurst said. But “if the fish is less able to recognize the scent of its prey and then therefore locate food when it’s foraging out in the wild, obviously that’s going to have negative impacts for growth and then survival in the long run.”
And that’s just one species. Similar tests are under way for rockfish, cod, several kinds of crab and sharks.
But brain damage is not even the biggest threat to commercial fish.
Key link in food chain dissolving
All over the ocean, usually too small to see, flutter beautiful, nearly see-through creatures called pteropods, also known as sea butterflies. Scientists have known for years that plummeting ocean pH eventually would begin to burn through their shells.Few people would find that significant save for one fact: Many things eat pteropods.
Birds, fish and mammals, from pollock to whales, feast on this abundant ocean snack. Pteropods make up half the diet of baby pink salmon and get eaten by other fish, such as herring, that then get swallowed by larger animals.
So scientists were alarmed late in 2012 when researchers announced that pteropods in Antarctica were dissolving right now in waters less corrosive than those often found off Washington and Oregon. What did that mean for the Northwest?
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Initial results are disturbing.
“Right now, for acidification in particular,” Kaplan said, “the risks look pretty substantial.”
Kaplan tracks the Pacific coast — temperature, pH levels, currents, salinity. He incorporates studies that detail how CO2 impacts creatures. Then he extrapolates how all those variables are likely to affect the fish people catch.
While the models are rough and uncertainty is high — too many elements cannot be controlled — the trend is clear.
Kaplan’s early work predicts significant declines in sharks, skates and rays, some types of flounder and sole, and Pacific whiting, also known as hake, the most frequently caught commercial fish off the coast of Washington, Oregon and California.
“Some species will go up, some species will go down,” said Phil Levin, ecosystems leader for NOAA’s Northwest Fisheries Science Center in Seattle. “On balance, it looks to us like most of the commercially caught fish species will go down.”
Fearing ‘a mess for this little town’
The findings confound those who rely on commercial fish.Capt. Ben Downs stood atop the wheelhouse of the F/V Pacific Dove, in Westport, Grays Harbor County, on a recent summer day as he rolled on a fresh coat of whitewash. Downs spent years piloting one of the coast’s biggest whiting boats. This day he was prepping for shrimp fishing.
“The early warnings are there. We’ve seen the first wave that hit the oysters. We’re just hoping it doesn’t come our way.”
Yet even a skeptic like Downs sees the stakes.
Coastwide, fishermen bring in tens of million pounds of whiting a year. It’s the biggest product at Westport’s fish plant, which at times employs a quarter of the city’s workforce.
“If the hake went away, it’d be a mess for this little town,” he said. “Astoria, Oregon, same thing. Newport, Oregon, same thing.”
Dave Fraser, who runs a whiting fishing cooperative, wasn’t skeptical, but weary. Fishermen already face tangible crises daily: the dollar’s value swinging wildly against the yen; quotas falling based on routine marine shifts.
“Being able to focus on something 10 or 20 years away … it’s hard,” he said. “The early warnings are there. We’ve seen the first wave that hit the oysters. We’re just hoping it doesn’t come our way.”
It is a problem not limited to fishing fleets.
“If you go 100 miles from the coast, most people say, ‘Why do I care about ocean acidification?’ ” Mathis, at NOAA, said. “Convincing a farmer in Iowa or a teacher in Kansas to care about ocean acidification is our challenge.”
He measures progress by the drop in emails from angry Alaskans challenging his findings.
“Acidification is very real: There isn’t any doubt it’s happening,” said Clem Tillion, a former Republican Alaska state Senate president, even though he still denies human contributions to global warming. “It’s obvious. And it’s going to be devastating.”
At stake: food for rural people
On a warm Papua New Guinea night, a quarter-mile from Fabricius’ CO2 vents, Edwin Morioga and Ridley Guma sat in the dark in a canoe and prepped their spears.But with a quarter of a million people spread across 600 islands, the threat to food may be more significant.
Most of their protein comes from the sea. Fishermen unspool hand lines to collect sweetlips and sea perch. They gather shrimp and crustaceans. And at night they dodge tiger sharks and saltwater crocodiles to spear small fish from beneath bountiful corals.
Globally, the sea provides the primary source of animal protein for a billion people. Many, like Morioga and Guma, have few alternatives.
The pair slipped into the water and floated face down, flashlights trained on the reef. Neither knew much about Fabricius’ acidification research. But they agreed they did not want CO2 from the West or an industrializing Asia transforming their reefs into places resembling the desolate nearby bubble sites.
Away from the vents, amid the coral, life of all kinds is still plentiful.
In an instant, Morioga saw a flash. He took a breath and dived, stabbing beneath a branching coral. After a pause, Morioga surfaced.
On the end of his spear writhed a tiny rabbitfish, his first catch of the night from what remains one of the world’s healthiest reefs.
At least for now.
Craig Welch: 206-464-2093 or cwelch@seattletimes.com. On Twitter @craigawelch.
“Sea Change” was produced, in part, with funding from the Pulitzer Center on Crisis Reporting. This article was published September 12, 2013.
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“Sea Change” was produced, in part, with funding from the Pulitzer Center on Crisis Reporting. This article was published September 12, 2013.
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Saturday, September 7, 2013
How to Win the War on Terror: Repeal the Patriot Act
Carl Gibson
Co-Founder, US Uncut
By the Fall of 2014, we all need to agree on two simple demands -
that all members of the House and Senate who voted for the Patriot Act,
and all of its subsequent renewals, be voted out of office. The other
demand is that anyone running for Congress must promise to repeal the
Patriot Act before doing anything else.
The only thing more alarming than the news about the NSA's all-encompassing citizen spying program PRISM, are members of Congress defending
this blatant violation of 4th amendment rights protecting all citizens
from unreasonable search and seizure. PRISM mined data from Microsoft,
Google, Amazon, Facebook, Youtube, and other sites. They monitored calls
from Verizon, AT&T, and Sprint networks. And they even mined data from credit card companies.
Since the Patriot Act was signed into law shortly after 9/11,
warrantless wiretapping and constant monitoring of our phone and email
conversations has been business as usual. This is the fault of both the
Bush and Obama administrations, as each corporate party is captive to
the same military-industrial complex making big bucks from the intrusive
police and surveillance state in the US.This government is waging war on civil liberties, and anyone who speaks out against its overreach. After the Obama administration's DOJ seized phone records of AP reporters, they defended their decision, saying it was important to catch and punish government whistleblowers. The ongoing Bradley Manning trial is just one of many metaphors for the government clamping down on anyone trying to shine light on unconstitutional and criminal actions taken by the government. There are ominous posters in the DC Metro implying that government whistleblowers will be killed. This is even happening at the state level -- the Wisconsin legislature convened under the cover of night to pass a bill banning the Center for Investigative Journalism from the University of Wisconsin campus, directly intruding on a free press' right to public documents.
This didn't all just happen overnight. After the passage of the Patriot Act in 2001, our rights to privacy as citizens were signed away. Sen. Russ Feingold (D-WI) was the only senator who voted no to the bill that gave massive new powers to the DOJ. Sen. Mary Landrieu (D-LA) didn't vote yes or no. The House vote for the 2001 bill was also pretty one-sided - the Patriot Act passed 357-66. When it came up for reauthorization in 2006, the Senate passed it 89-10 (there were several who voted yes in 2001 and no in 2006) and the house passed it 280-138. And in 2011, the Patriot Act was extended through 2015 on an 86-12 vote in the Senate, and a 275-144 vote in the House. You can see how your members of Congress voted here, here and here. And it's important to note that presidents of both parties signed extensions of the Patriot Act into law.
The whole argument behind this assault on our civil liberties is that the Patriot Act's passage and subsequent extensions were necessary to win the so-called war on terror. Today, we've since killed Osama bin Laden and numerous other presumed al-Qaeda leaders. We were told the reason 9/11 happened is because terrorists hate our freedom. But if the main assailant on our constitutional rights today is the government itself, then that makes anyone in Congress who still supports the Patriot Act a terrorist attacking our freedom.
Sen. Dianne Feinstein (D-CA) defended these intrusions on our rights, saying, "It's called protecting America." It's worth noting that Feinstein received almost $200,000 from Northrop Grumman, General Dynamics, BAE Systems and drone manufacturer General Atomics in the 2012 election cycle. Ardent Patriot Act supporters like Feinstein aren't protecting their constituents, but the profits and stock prices of their sugar daddies.
Obama ran on a promise of discontinuing warrantless wiretapping in 2008. He's since become embroiled in scandals of Nixonian proportions after the seizure of the AP's phone calls and, most recently, our own. His presidency marked the rise of the oppressive surveillance state that was too busy monitoring peaceful protesters to catch the Boston bombers, even after Russia warned us twice over that bombing suspect Tamerlan Tsarnaev was in the US and was capable of planning a terrorist attack. While the Obama administration's NSA missed out on the Tsarnaevs, they've almost completed their new, state-of-the-art data center in the mountains of Utah, where every phone call and every piece of online communication from every citizen is stored. This troubling new surveillance culture isn't for terrorists, it's for us.
George Orwell's book 1984 was meant to be a fiction novel, not an instruction manual. If we want to stop the government's tyrannical spree and blatant disregard for our rights, we have to insist that the Patriot Act be repealed and that we abolish the Department of Homeland Security in its entirety. We can no longer call ourselves a free country until we accomplish both of those objectives.
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Monday, September 2, 2013
I Am A Zombie Filled With Love
By Isaac Marion
I am a zombie, and it's not so bad.
I'm learning to live with it. I'm sorry I can't properly introduce myself,
but I don't have a name anymore. Hardly any of us do. We forget them, like
anniversaries and PIN numbers. I think mine might have started with a "T",
but I'm not sure. It's funny, because back when I was alive, I was always
forgetting other people's names. I am finding that irony abounds in
the zombie life, an ever-present punch line. But it's hard to smile when
your lips have rotted off.
Before I became a zombie, I think I
was a businessman or young professional of some kind. I think I worked in
one of those stifling office jobs in a highrise somewhere. The clothes
clinging to the remains of my body are high-quality business-casual. Fine
gabardine slacks, silvery silk shirt, red Armani power tie. I would
probably look pretty sharp if my intestines weren't dragging at my feet.
Ha.
We like to joke and speculate about
our remaining outfits, since these final fashion choices are usually the
only indication of who we were before we became no-one. Some people's are
less obvious than mine. Jeans and a white t-shirt. Skirt and a tanktop. So
we make random guesses.
You were a plumber. You were a
barista. Ring any bells?
It usually doesn't.
No one I know has any specific
memories. We recognize some things — buildings, cars, ties — but
context eludes us. We are here, we do what we do. We lack excellent
diction, but we can communicate. We grunt and groan, we make hand
gestures, and sometimes a few words slip out. It's not that different from
before.
There are a few hundred of us living
in a wide plain of dust outside some large city. We don't need shelter or
warmth, obviously. We stand around in the dust, and time passes. I think
we've been here for a long time. Despite my dragging entrails, I am in
decay's early stages, but there are a few elderly ones here who are little
more than skeletons with clinging bits of muscle. Somehow, it still
extends and contracts, and they keep moving. I have never seen any of us
"die" of old age. Maybe we live forever, I don't know. I don't think much
about the future anymore. That's something that's very different from
before. When I was alive, the future was all I thought about. Obsessed
about. Death has relaxed me.
But it makes me sad that we've
forgotten our names. Out of everything, this seems to me the most tragic.
I don't miss my own, but I mourn for everyone else's, because I want to
love them, but I don't know who they are.
Today a group of us are going into
town to find some food. How this expedition begins is one of us gets
hungry and starts shuffling toward town, and a few others follow him.
Focused thought is a rare occurrence with us, and we follow it when we see
it. Otherwise we would just be standing around groaning. We do a lot of
standing around groaning, and it's frustrating sometimes. Years pass this
way. The flesh withers on our bones, and we stand around, waiting for it.
I am curious how old I might be.
The city where the people live is not
that far. We arrive around noon and start looking for living flesh. The
new kind of hunger is a strange feeling. You don't feel it in your stomach
- of course not, since some of us don't even have stomachs. You feel it
just...everywhere. You start to feel "more dead". I've watched some of my
friends go back to being full-dead, when food is scarce. They just slow
down, and stop, and become corpses again. I don't really understand it.
I guess the world has mostly ended,
because the cities we wander through are decaying as fast as we are.
Buildings are collapsed. Dead, rusted cars fill the streets. All glass
everywhere is shattered. I don't know if there was a war, or a plague, or
if it was just us. Maybe it was all three. I don't know. I don't think
about things like that anymore.
In a cluster of broken down apartment
buildings we find some people, and we eat them. Some of them have weapons,
and as usual we lose some of our number, but we don't care. Why would we
care? What's death, now?
Eating is not a pleasant business. I
chew off a man's arm, and I hate this, it's disgusting. I hate his
screams, because I don't like pain, I don't like to hurt things, but this
is the world now, this is what we do. Of course, if I don't eat all of
him, if I leave enough, he'll rise up and follow me back to our dusty
field outside the city, and that might make me feel better. I'll introduce
him to everyone, and maybe we'll stand around and groan for a while. It's
hard to say what "friends" are anymore, but maybe that's close. If I don't
eat all of him, if I leave enough...
But of course I don't leave enough. I
eat his brain, because that's the good part. That's the part that, when I
swallow it, makes my head light up with feelings. Clear memories. For
about three to ten seconds, depending on the person, I get to feel alive.
I get traces of delicious meals, beautiful music, perfume, sunsets,
orgasms, life. Then it fades, and I get up and stumble out of the
city, still dead, but feeling a little less so. Feeling ok.
I don't know why we have to eat
people. I don't understand what chewing off a man's neck accomplishes. We
certainly don't digest the meat and absorb the nutrients. My stomach is a
rotted bag of dried bile, useless. We don't digest, we just eat until the
weight forces it out our ass holes, and then we eat more. It feels so
useless, and yet it keeps us walking. I don't know why. None of us really
understand why we are the way we are. We don't know if we're the result of
some kind of global infection, or some ancient curse, or something even
more senseless. We don't talk about it much. Existential debate is not a
major part of zombie life. We are here, and we do things. We are simple.
It's nice sometimes.
Outside the city again, back with the
others in the dust field, I start walking in a circle for no reason. I
plant one foot in the dirt and pivot on it, around and around, kicking up
clouds of dust. Before, when I was alive, I could never have done this. I
remember stress. I remember bills and deadlines, Asset Retention Reports.
I remember being so occupied, so always, everywhere, all the time occupied.
Now I'm just standing in a wide-open field of dust, walking in a circle.
The world has been distilled. Being dead is easy.
After a few days of this, I stop
walking, and I stand still, swaying back and forth and groaning a little.
I don't know why I groan. I'm not in pain, and I'm not sad. I think it's
just air being squeezed in and out of my lungs. When my lungs decompose,
it will probably stop. And now, while swaying and groaning, I notice a
dead woman standing a few feet away from me, facing the distant mountains.
She doesn't sway or groan, her head just lolls from side to side. I like
that about her, that she doesn't sway or groan. I walk over and stand
beside her. I wheeze some kind of greeting, and she responds with a lurch
of her shoulder.
I like her. I reach out and touch her
hair. She has not been dead very long. Her skin is grey and her eyes
slightly sunken, but she has no exposed bones or organs. Her death outfit
is a black skirt and a snug white button-up. I suspect she used to be a
waitress.
Pinned to her chest is a silver
nametag.
I can read her name. She has a name.
Her name is Emily.
I point to her chest. Slowly, with
great effort, I say, "Em..ily." The word rolls off what's left of
my tongue like honey. What a good name. I feel warm saying it.
Emily's cloudy eyes widen at the
sound, and she smiles. I also smile, and then maybe I'm a little nervous
because my femur snaps and I fall backwards into the dust. Emily just
laughs, and it's a choked, raw, lovely sound. She reaches down and helps
me to my feet.
Emily and I have fallen in love.
I'm not sure how this happens. I
remember what love was like before, and this is different. This is
simpler. Before, there were complex emotional and biological factors at
work. We had long checklists and elaborate tests to be passed. We looked
at hairstyles and careers and breast sizes. And sex was there, in
everything, confusing everyone, like hunger. It created longing, it
created ambition, competition, it drove people to leave their houses and
invent automobiles, space craft, and atom bombs when they could instead
just sit on the couch until they died. Animal cravings. Subconscious
urges. Sex made the world go ‘round.
This is all gone now. Sex, once a
force as universal as gravity, is now irrelevant. Ambition and longing
have left the equation. My penis fell off two weeks ago.
So the equation is deleted, the
blackboard erased, and things are different now. Our actions have no
ulterior motives. We shuffle around in the dust and occasionally have
lumbering, grunted exchanges with our peers. No one argues. There are no
fights, ever.
And Emily is not a complicated
process. I just see her, and walk over to her, and for no reason, really,
I decide I want to be with her for a long time. So now we shuffle around
in the dust together instead of alone. For whatever reason, we
enjoy each other's company. When we have to go into town to eat people, we
do it at separate times, because it's unpleasant, and we don't want to
share that. But we share everything else, and it's nice.
We decide to walk to the mountains. It
takes us three days, but now we are standing on a cliff looking up at a
fat white moon. At our backs, the night sky is red from distant cities
burning, but we don't care about that. I clumsily grab Emily's hand, and
we stare at the moon.
There's no real reason for any of
this, but like I said, the world has been distilled. Love has been
distilled. Everything is easy now. Yesterday my leg broke off, and I don't
even mind.
End
NOTE:
This story was the seed for a full-length novel
called WARM BODIES which is now being published in 16 languages and made
into a film by Summit Entertainment. Hooray!
WARM BODIES is available now in the UK. It comes out
March 8th, 2011 in the US, and can
be pre-ordered now on Amazon.
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